love just simple and complicated....

actually y i wan to so care about him??
he just a human beings...y my heart will so care about him??
rationally i should not continue thinking tis matter....
but my heart just will go to him...tis is the differences of physically and mentally....
i dun wan being like this...is so irritating...confused..
just dun care anything or the effect to do something???
just dun care wat will happen later???
just dun care whether he like me??
just dun wan make my life regret??
just dun stop yourself to do sumting if u wan to do in ur heart???
just do it???
just confusing~~!!!shit...y this all bothering me??
i just dun wan make myself regret...
y human got emotion and different feelings???
i just agree that i live him so much..
i just cant imagine i went to kepong to visit him only then come back again...
i just miss him very much..
i wan to ask him whether still OK??
i wan to concern about him...but~~~
i cant say it out...if i said it out...he will think that i will care about him always..
today when going back MU...i cried again...
i just become weaker and weaker in front of them..
back to the initial point...that time I'm so cool and playful..
but now i just showing my weak side to them...
NO NO~~~!!!!
be strong be strong be strong.....