yeah~~~!!!CLUBBING clubbing CLUBING........wOO wOo WoO.........!!!

wey soon was planning to yam cha with Nicole them..but suddenly their plan changed...
changed to clubbing in Rums..
they asked us whether we wanna go...
im the 1st who said WAN.......
cz i really hope for that for a long long time ago....tz to all of them...
i really had fun there....i like it...
at there no need to think so much....just had fun...tats all...
next time u all got go just call me along...
i can release myself at there....
althought I'm sad that time...but i released it when clubbing....
i wan to go again.....wOO Woo wOo WoO~~~!!!!!

love just simple and complicated....

actually y i wan to so care about him??
he just a human beings...y my heart will so care about him??
rationally i should not continue thinking tis matter....
but my heart just will go to him...tis is the differences of physically and mentally....
i dun wan being like this...is so irritating...confused..
just dun care anything or the effect to do something???
just dun care wat will happen later???
just dun care whether he like me??
just dun wan make my life regret??
just dun stop yourself to do sumting if u wan to do in ur heart???
just do it???
just confusing~~!!!shit...y this all bothering me??
i just dun wan make myself regret...
y human got emotion and different feelings???
i just agree that i live him so much..
i just cant imagine i went to kepong to visit him only then come back again...
i just miss him very much..
i wan to ask him whether still OK??
i wan to concern about him...but~~~
i cant say it out...if i said it out...he will think that i will care about him always..
today when going back MU...i cried again...
i just become weaker and weaker in front of them..
back to the initial point...that time I'm so cool and playful..
but now i just showing my weak side to them...
NO NO~~~!!!!
be strong be strong be strong.....

given~~!!!

today, at home really sienz until crazy...try to on9 do revision ....
but finally alex called me...haiz....answered his call for 2 hours....woi seh mAn...
talk wat for 2 hours....hahahha..
but suddenly hong called for swimming at bukit jalil....
1st time..and i met shinny....nice mAn.....
friendly betul ni.....hahhahha...
and when v want to go to bath...hong and i tried to kiss in the water...
but finally...the feeling is very watery.....just drinking the pool's water....
i think better in atmosphere...
but i didnt imagine he really kiss...and it is french kiss sumore...
i thought he will joke onli...but he seriously kiss me...
then i asked him he still in love with her ont...
he answered me NO.......and he hugged me....

pasar malam.....yam cha wif yam gang.....^-^'''

i went with mj and nicole,jason,carmen,ke guin and others to cheras's pasar malam...
raining go pasar malam...not bad...with nicole them was fun....
ate many delicious food..........wanna go again with them...
later midnight,suddenly hong asked us go out yam cha...sumore with yam gang pulak..
strange mAn....yam gang, me ,Alex and siew keong....situation just......
cold....speechless....and the 'middle connection' between us...
hahhahha... he dun noe wat to do...
then i just trying communicate with them....
Alex and siew keong din say anything to them...
but nice to meet yam gang them lah...
the first time must be a bit feel like stranger but interact with them longer i think will OK de...
^-^"""

argue and sadness.....

yesterday v went to the curve...watched 'Ah long'....that movie was funny ....v laughed from the start until the end..my mood was bad yesterday...
i just not shuang..y he like me but he dun wan say it out???
if not enough brave, he is his problem....
this phase is presented by pau yee to hong....
the last two phase from" 蒲公英的眼泪" by Jay Chow.....
你已经分不清那是友情， 还是错过的爱情。。。。。。
Alex is right...he just cannot sure that...he dunnoe about his own feeling....
he not sure that he love me ont....im sitting there mAn....
today he suddenly asked me whether is that im not shuang......
we seem like arguing in college..
just that y he keep asking me tell him that who will go out with me....
then i told....but he just dun believe....and ask me prove it ....
just believe me....
i wont lie to u de lah...
after vf said sumting..i cried...
then better stop..if not i'll continue cryin.....
and hong become so quite....sosososo quite...
sad.....just that u dun wan say it out........

hate u but love u too....just dun stop the night...

wah seh~~~
when vf beside me..i cant even let her know that im updating this blog...in kepong over 24 hours ady.......after went syl's hse, we went to the curve..initially planned for a movie but do not have the right time..so we went to the pub outside THE STREET there had a drink.....situation still oklol....just enjoying that night....after that went SS2 for yam cha.....just pls dun stop the night....i dun wan home if not i'll be alone....really lame mAn....5 person went there but we all ordered 'ais kosong'.......hahhah..the waiter shocked...that day really 'wet' until so late...until 3sumting...then i overnight at pau yee's hse...then the next day,we go out again but the characters changed....this time.....we went to the curve again...for a movie...v just simply bang see which movie can watch......we watched 'vanished'.....a Japanese movie...a ghost movie...then back kepong to yam cha....v just thinking wat can v do that night...hong suggested go to PD...i really got that actuation to go to PD that night...but at last pau yee need to go home but i feel like not going home....really DUN WAN.....i dun wan be alone....pau yee and hong went home..but alex and me went gentingkelang's Steven corner...yam cha again.....v chat for so long....and chat for so many things that related to me and Alex...
Alex know im still in love wif hong...
then the next day,hong keep asking me that what i chatted with Alex..
he just dun believe me that i normally chatted with Alex....
disappointed mAn....
how can i tell him.....all v chatted are all related to him...
then he felt not shuang ady...really sux....

ur caring, u cant hide it anymore.....

when u r caring about me...i noe...
u cant hide it..
the more u say no,tat means u say yes...
examples: the more u say yourself din angry,then i will noe u are angry now...
how u cant hide it anymore???
i ady noe wat u are thinking...pls dun think too much sometimes...
but i am happy that u care about me...tz....
cz i noe u r caring me...
more that a caring if compare to friends...
REALLY MISS U HERE~~~~!!!!
love u~~~!!!

holiday vanished and things more complicated~~~

initially i got one week of holiday but now vanished.....
8th that day is election day..and v went to help them all..
then went to sunway pyramid....after walk walk..
my mum and me went for a massage.....foot relaxology...nice mAn...
then next day we went to the curve and ikea...
today went back melati here and 2moro going back again....haiz....driving also...WTF mAn ...
today i heard 2 news that make my life irritating and complicated....
haiz...y humans being need to be so smart???y need to think???
today dunnoe wat time got to go see house.....haiz....
exam is coming too...April..mid-course.....not yet start study mAn....
just tired to life now.....can v stop the time???can v just no need to think so much??
CAN EVERYTHING STOP????!!!!!!
miss u baby so much here mAn....

yesterday...v went to Sg.Wang for karaoke in green box...hahahha...fucking boring mAn...
in karaoke i thought that something will happen but finally disappointed mAn....
NOTHING happened....
just that dun noe y Hong dun wan do sumting...if he do sumting,i will accept back him...yyy??
is fate i think....is FATE..
but between us is so close until can use one song from Rainnie Cheng...暧昧。。。
something between us is over for usual friend's relationship..
but not enough to become couple again...
haiz...just let it be naturally....
i can confirmed that i love him very very much...
but in front of others people,i will deny it...
i would like to let them think that i really putted it behind my brain...
but...myself noe that nor matter how i denied it...my heart will still go on....
if compare to others guy,that's more caring to him and i would like to noe more about him....
may be this is wat they called LOVE...
but my LOVE always one person only..always is myself fall in love only...y dun he LOVE me more then i love him....
I'm not sure wat he's thinking???
really hope to noe the answer whether he likes me ont...but on the other side,i scared to hear that answer that disappointed me....
thus i rather dun noe it...just acting blur and cant catch wat they said....
i just wan to PROTECT myself only...i really hope to hug him RIGHT NOW....miss him mAn...


and went kepong for dinner and he tried to get his parent 's permission to stay at his friend's house then genting kelang for pool...
whole process is not important...
is that i sit beside him..i can sleep at his shoulder..hope to sleep longer..
hope that he will feel my LOVE...
if not i got to be alone again on this time..~~~~to continue road of this LOVE feelings....

JUST DUN LET ME ALONE HERE...~~!!!!!!! house...and we went back

1st time posting my blog in blogspot...
y everyone blogging using Chinese??
just hard when reading their blog...i prefer English..
yesterday, v went to station 1 for lunch and me,FF and SK went for pool..nice shoot..
may be 2day got mood to play tat game only...
others went to CC...hate CC..
nothing to do there...NO LIFE there~~!!!

during chemistry..
me and Hong,discussing about the subjects...
i wondering will i get As for my Chemistry..

MUST get A~~!!!

Today morning three members of ELHG talked something that i do not know....
but after chemistry..Hong asked me...
"can give him 'play' ont?"
of cz i will say no...
the other people say i will...
haiz..they really not enough know my characteristic...

reached home...jonvon,mj and vf keep on playing xdo n sdo...
haiz...dunnoe wat attracted them keep on playing...
and I'm alone there doing nothing....
haiz...just they cant stop playing xdo..???????
at nite..went to genting kelang for our dinner..
went face to face..haiz...
suckz...when v eating they swipe the floor...
they wont bother abt hygiene??
tis shows us tat they were not welcoming the customers..
they were asking the customers went off their shop....
brainless!!!!
use brain lah...
if wan to do our business then just use brain lah...
really geh heh yesterday...haiz....